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己丑年四月十五      炎热

here is something about <greys anatomy>.

u know, i always talk about this, and never say why. cause i belive everyone who watches this knows the reason.

it always telling the turth, and turth hurts.

about famliy.

we all have someone to love and someone to hate, or in some cases someone u have to love. to me, i got someone that i have to pretend that i love them. in fact, they r the one that i hate the most.  u know, i always thought that my grandma killed my dad, or at least she is the reason made he got the cancer. then again, every famliy has its own issues, we could not be sure about anything.

but, my dad, turth be told, he was the big montain in my family, he was the one to keep everything stay the way it should be. he was the one, u know, the one makes u feel safe and protected. that is wat fathers do.  and now i don't have it anymore.  during the past 18 years, i mean when he was alive, i was doing just one thing---gaining his approve. now i'm just gaining his approve inside of my heart.

here is the problem, if i meet a great guy, i want his approve and i have no one to take to. if someguy is going to merry me in someday, i hope my dad has check the guy before i merried him.

and meredith has no father at all. so does cristina, george, izzsi and alex. everybody here lost their father, it comforts me on some levels.

and here we go with the love thing.

everyone afraid of being hurt. i've been there, the pain makes me want to kill myself. however, i moved on, i hope there will be someone better for me, that someone appreciates me, appreciates who i really was, not how much i could help him.  i hope we will end up somewhere good. i need to belive that we'll going to end up somewhere good.

and here we r again, meredith is going to get merried. its kind of cheer me up a little. life is long and life is hard, so people lie to get less hurt. and yes, i still wanted the painfully turth and the fairy-tale endings.

my point is, i love the show. i love my mum and my friends who walks me through those years. i love you all.

and here is why i'm using the e words, he could not understand.  ^^

here is something i like from the <corpse bride>:

with this hand, i will lift your sorrows

your cup will never empty, for i will be your wine

with this candle, i will light your way in darkness

with this ring, i ask you to be mine